It was my last ISG vball before I graduate, and I was kinda looking forward to it since IHG vball season for us has already miserably ended, as expected. It was during warm ups, before any match even started, before ADM v SCBE. I was doing my usual setting by the net when I jumped, and bloody hell William Ong the boy (not guy) who can't play vball for nuts, jumped to 'spike' from the other side of the net and couldn't break his own momentum, charged from under the net and into me while I was midair. Bam.
Even though I've sprained my ankle before, this time it felt different. It felt worse.
At that moment I felt really giddy and out of breath. Nauseous, pain, and all the words that people were saying to me became all muffled out. In my head I was thinking.. oh so this is how it really feels like, when dramas show what a person experiences before fainting. Thought I was gonna pass out or die. Drama, I know.
Got pulled to the side and I eventually threw up which made me feel better. Iced my leg and hung around for awhile before help came in the form of bff tan xiwen and the bf who took time off his work and commuted all the way down to pulau NTU to send me home. Felt loved.
Two days have passed and I'm on crutches for probably the next week or so. Being this partially disabled is really annoying and troublesome. I have to trouble everyone around me to help me get stuff, accompany me to places, and settle my meals. I can't step out of the house and I'm so damn bored which explains this post. I feel as if my life has come to a halt, but time waits for no one. The next day after I injured myself it was IHG softball quarters WHICH I CAN'T PLAY. Really really really extremely mad at myself and guilty towards my team for being in this state at the worst timing. My last chance to play in Hall 10 softball for the semis and I chose to sacrifice this chance for some stupid ISG vball which was hopeless and that I didn't even play in the end. UGHHHHHHH.
Next week school reopens and FYP is ongoing but my progress is stagnant all thanks to my immobility. How do I even get around school in this state. I'm really worried for next week. well done geraldine for picking the best timing to get yourself injured. Can't go to work in the meantime as well which honestly doesn't really bother me (but that means no income), but slightly suspecting that my bosses would think that I'm just making a fuss out of a seemingly 'small' injury to escape work when I'm actually not.
After an X-ray the doctor said that I have bone growths on the sides of my ankles due to bad recovery from my previous injuries, and constant exertion will cause it to grow bigger which may cause pain and require surgery in the future. So no more competitive sports. what? Even my mum is against me playing vball or softball again in the future after hearing that. How to survive. Just grow fat and rot.
Seriously. Can't my year start on a better note?
For a little consolation, a very old friend who walked out on our friendship and for a good 6 years of my life has been labelled by me as a bastard recently contacted me again to apologize and salvage this lost friendship. Yes I was hurt and disappointed then, but people grow and time heals so thank you for taking this step to say sorry and reconcile our broken friendship.
Yup.