I must say that I felt a little rocky suring cultural night but still well, but HOCC really tested my limits and I lost my temper several times and even scolded people because they really asked for it. My phone had been really busy together with me, and I always dread checking it because there'll always be someone asking me for something or telling me to do something. HOCC is like the biggest scale ever event I've ever been in charge of, with so many people to manage and answer to, so naturally you can't please everybody so sometimes you just have to suck it up and tell some people off. Through all this, I have learnt to say 'no'.
However, I'm thankful for having a committee that (majority) supports me and does their job fairly well. We went for a committee supper after the clean up and it just felt so heartwarming that we started the year with pizza and now we're celebrating the end of it all with pizza yet again.
Now that all my supposed shit is over, there's still CAEN which thankfully i'm not chairing, but to some extent still involved in getting my cultural side to participate.. And worst of all, reality hits me that i'm so behind in my school work. Oh damn there goes my recess week.
And all the post-event admin stuff to settle. It just never ends does it...
Even though i'm supposed to be free of my responsibilities, I just feel like a lot is going on in my mind and I'm not sure if i'm even thinking right at this point of time. Don't know what to think, don't wanna make mistakes, don't wanna let people down, but yet can't help but keep thinking. Maybe time will help me.