Well in a nutshell, I've signed myself up for more than I expected. And now that I'm already on board and one semester has passed, it's too late for regrets and I guess I have no choice but to just suck it up and pray that everything works out in the next semester.
I thought that cultural secretary was just in charge of the cultural groups and responsible for organizing singnstrum night and cultural night the end. But nope, there comes a load of I don't know whether to call luck or bad luck, chairing HOCC which happens only once every 16 years and I got it. Seriously...
I thought that even though you're the once heading events regardless of within hall or interhall, there would be people helping you out so that you wouldn't die alone but I've come to realize that it's not the case and it's really everyone for themselves. If given a chance to turn back time I would choose not to have been psychoed into joining JCRC.
Nice one geraldine.
I'm thankful that I've managed to survive this semester's workload and anything school related for I've been dreading all my animation cores and honestly struggled with 3D and all the software shit. But moving along, friends have helped one another and being able to even submit a final animation even though amatuer-ish felt like an immense achievement already.
Christmas is here and that marks the end of yet another year gone soon in a blink of an eye.
Somehow 2012 feels so surreal as if this year didn't even exist and everything that happened just flashed and gone so quickly.
Christmas every year seems to become more and more dull and losing its meaning. People gather and eat and go as if food was the only thing drawing them together. Everyone's just becoming strangers to one another and sometimes I feel like why am I the only one trying so hard when no one else seem to even care anyway.
I am ashamed to say that 2012 is a year of regrets. I have neglected my friends and loved ones in the later half of this year due to my other commitments. Friends whom I have agreed to meet up with but never happened, things I have planned to do with my family but never happened, a list of places to go to and things to do which I was not able to tick off, things that I have wanted to try but never did.
Yet among these regrets there have been wonderful things that are worth remembering.
Going to taiwan with friends, HK with my family, being part of Hall FOC, taking that big step by joining JCRC.
I'm foreseeing that the first half of 2013 would be similar to the late half of this year, but busier. I dare not make resolutions that I know I cannot achieve. I only pray for the best of health and happiness for all my loved ones and close friends, and for the following year to be smooth sailing.
