I'm feeling so bored and restless in this house. Okay it was my choice to coop myself up anyway. Got infected with a horrible cold sore since last weekend, which kept escalating till yesterday. Apart from numerous disgusting blisters on my lips that keeps multiplying until who knows when, had a fever for 3 days which thankfully stopped, swollen and painful gums, swollen tonsil, and an inflamed throat (and I have decided that the most appropriate description for it is a fishbonestuckinthethroat-kind of sorethroat pain). Brushing my teeth hurts, swallowing my own saliva hurts, even swallowing nothing hurts. I've been on a consistent 80% liquid diet for the past few days, and sucking on lozenges almost 24/7 even in my sleep. Wondering if I could lose some weight from this whole ordeal.
Came home on wednesday morning and I've missed classes for the rest of the week. I don't know if I should feel glad or not. But one thing I know for sure is that home feels so much more comfortable. I haven't stepped out of my house since the last 53.5 hours. Throwing the garbage doesn't count. I hate how the judgmental public stares at you like you have some disease or deformity. The face mask shall be my new best friend for next week at least.
Oh, and I have no drive to do anywork or whatsoever at all.. damn.
On a side note, I finally can see what other people meant when they say that things will always be different from the initial after time, because there is no objective anymore. You achieve it, you obtain your goal, you're satisfied, and then you stop there. Sustenance alone is not enough to make it the same as before either. Humans just take all things for granted. myself included.
Posted at 3:17 PM