Today all 5 econs papers were thrown back at me at a go during my first lesson of the day. how traumatizing.. I did terrible, seriously. Well it's not that I expected to do very well but I thought I could at least... do a little better than this. She just had to flash everyone's results on the screen, and I could see that I was one of the lousiest or maybe I AM the lousiest. This feeling really sucks like hell, it's not the first time I felt it though.. How is it that some people like him could even do better than me?? I just feel so lousy, so useless, so STUPID. I studied for econs...I really did, but I don't know why I just can't score well. I don't know how to study for econs other than just reading and writing stuff out. My bio isn't any better either. Why is it that people can improve so much and do reasonably well for prelims but not me. I STUDY. I really suck and I feel so helpless. Lam wants to meet me tomorrow and it won't be good. She caught me in the morning for my ear studs and sticks? apparently they're too big. whatever. What a wonderful start to the week. 5 more weeks to A levels but here I am worrying my heart out over prelims. I really wanted to cry.. but not in front of everyone. I won't allow that. Crying won't solve anything but it just shows weakness.
I will not cry, because I know that's weakness in your eyes.So just swallow those tears geraldine, and keep walking.
Posted at 9:33 PM