Yea I know it's like just the first official week of proper lessons so I shouldn't make judgments too early, but it's precisely because it's so early that's why it sucks. get it?
#1 the school stupidly didn't offer me art. well even though I know that happened before school started but before that they wasted so much of my time and gave me false hope by pushing me around to find so many different people, send out so many stupid emails, telling me they would 'check' or try to help me get art. but no. in the end it's all bullshit la.
#2 I want to drop H2 econs to H1 asap, like NOW. cos I don't see a need in taking it for half a year just to do bady during JCTs then realise I suck at it right? save me the time and trouble. It's new, it's difficult, and I don't like it. So the same thing happens, they push you to look for different people, then tell you they'll 'CHECK', but somehow you'll never get any good response.
Screw it man! Lectures are too fast, tutorials are too demanding. Teacher's give tutorial homework as if it's free. (well it is, anway)... Okay maybe by now you'll be thinking that I'm such a complain freak who can't handle stress at only the start of the year. Yeah, maybe I am like that. Can't help it if i'm... not-as-smart right. oh plus, I'm lazy. And I know that habit takes a long time to be rid of. so... I'll stick to complaining for now.
I'm always tired. You'll probably hear me saying it everyday. But so? It's a fact.
I realised my temper has been quite bad these days. all the tablet checks and other stuff......... pissing me off, making me upset and all.
what the crap la... I think it's already physically draining, yet now comes the emotional part. That freaking sucks. I don't even know what the hell is going on, what the hell I did, and why the hell do I have to get all this shit like on the first week okay damn it. It's damn confusing. damn damn confusing and tiring........ One of the worst part is.. there's like really no one you can rely on. everyone for themselves. yeap. So if you die then die on your own.
oh on a side note, I scraped my other knee yesterday at the same place, same cause. cool lah seriously..
shit maybe I should have gone to a poly or nafa right from the start.
Just some serenity please...