Language Arts
essay: 29/50
comprehension: 21/50
overall(over100): 50/100
Chemistry
MCQ: 10/20
paper: 28/80
overall(over100): 40/100
Biology
MCQ: 14/30
structured: 26/50
essay: 10/20
overall(over100): 50/100
HCL
composition: 52/70
letter writing: 13/20
paper: 49/110
overall(over100): 57/100
Geography
paper: 37/75
overall(over100): 49.3/100
Maths
Paper 1: 13/80
Paper 2: 28/80
overall(over100): 25.6/100
Yup that's all for my JCTs.
Okay go ahead, laugh all you want.
I know that my results are hilarious, and I've yet to tell my parents my results.
I really don't know how to!
like, "hey mommy and daddy do you know that i got 50/100 for bio but that's considered one of the better marks in my class???"
WOW as if they would believe me you know...
tell me how how how ??? what to do, how do i say it?
it's not like i didn't work hard for JCTs.
In fact, i mugged incredibly harder than usual, and thus i have expectations on myself.
The higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment.
Unlike last year JCTs, when i knew i didn't study, i expected to fail, so it wasn't a big blow to me.
But now with results like that, would it convince my parents that i've studied hard?
obviously NOT. with past experience...
Some smart people really did disgustingly well and i don't know how they did it. and i don't think i ever will know.
Look at geography. 65% of the class passed and all my friends passed with flying colours. Yet I couldn't even scrape past the moderated mark. It was damn depressing..
As for Bio, LA and HCL, i really studied hard for them(other than hcl) and i expected more than just a pass. but in the end what happened? It was still 50 or slightly more.
what is happening to meeeeeee.
Seriously, I am stupid. and i hate it that I am, okay.
Don't bother telling me "no you're not! the fact that you're in IP means that you're SMART. IP papers are difficult!" and bla bla bla bla bla.
Teachers say, the papers were either manageable or easy.
But many people in the level flunked their JCTs really badly too.
Friends in secondary schools say that it's because we're in IP that's why our papers are difficult.
But you know, whatever we're doing is actually of similar standard to the mainstream.
we're not special kids, we're not geniuses.
I think that most of us really came here for the sake of avoiding O levels.
don't envy us! because after a good dressing down from our teachers, we realised that we are actually at a disadvantage if we are not doing well here.
By coming to IP, it's either
A. you're brilliant, then you'll be able to survive. Coming to IP makes you ahead of the mainstream.
or
B. you suck, then you die. Coming to IP would be a bad choice for you, and you're even worse than the mainstream.
Of course by now, I fall into category B. How smart of me.
Ah whatever, I made my own decision to come here, and now i'm just paying for my choice made.
