some say i seem stressed out? i don't know...
but the fact is that there are many other people who mug so much harder than me,
yet they can still be so calm.
some don't mug, yet they are confident.
yes maybe i'm stressed, and i'm desperately trying to do well for promos,
because i want to make it up for how much i lost during the jcts.
because there are my friends who pin high hopes and have such faith in me.
because there is my family, who wants me to do well, and i would try my best not to let them down.
because of the many bets i made with my friends. although it may be seen as a form of motivation, but somehow it turns into stress.
because of the expectations i have for myself, to stop being such a loser.
seriously, when i was in ahs, i used to be good.but no use whining over this, i was the one who made the decision to come here, and i feel like i've become stupid.
we're not smart. It's just that the smart ones have all gone to vip, and those who can't make it there come to ta.
since ta is deperate for a new batch, they just take the smarter 100 of the stupids.
i'm sorry if i offended anyone, but there are people who are smart as well.
'wa u go ip...so clever.'
so? big deal? compared to the mainstream, i've become nothing.
even in preparation for next day's exam, i can just blank out, even though we have gone through that topic like a million times. my memory is just crap, and so what if i revised?
everything's just forgotten, and it's as good as not revising. stupid.
I agree to what michelle said, how can they let one paper set the standard of an individual?
even of some people mugged alot, but they blanked out suddenly, then their efforts just don't pay off.
while some people are just pure smart and don't have to study to get good grades.
the rest, they don't study much but they do well. luck.
life is unfair.
Some bastards just have to be bastards during this period of time.
go ahead, use me, then go away, expecting me to ask u back again? sorry, no.
i don't even know what you freaking want.
like i said, bastards are all the same. every single one of them.
Today, some idiots from SJI wearing long pants were in the same bus as me and shiling.
no, make it SJI KIDS.
they freaking called us pasiris sec substitutes. it's either they're blind or stupid.
your school is in the east yet you never heard of tjc before? go and die la.
and they made fun of this helpless old lady who indeed has slight mental problem or lao ren chi dai zheng. she didn't offend them in any way, and do you think she wanted to be in such a condition? one day when they become old and get the same illness i hope the younger generation will laugh at them.
'your grandmother your grandmother.'
'F you lah!'
not funny at all, seriously. and the shithead who was making all these insults all the time turned out to be some fat ass.
fancy squeezing to the door of the bus when it was totally crowded and the bus was still far from the bus.
childish morons.
if it wasn't because my mp3 ran out of battery, i wouldn't have to listen to all these crap.
Lastly, today's mooncake festival, but when i took a walk downstairs, i saw people lighting candles and poking them by the path? and no lanterns to be seen. wow.
so is this some new way of celebrating mooncake festival? by arranging candles?
looked kind of like the 7th month but nvm.
when i finally saw one little boy carrying a lantern, it seemed like a rare sighting.
the moon's not that spectacular today either.
well that's mooncake festival for me.